it will all blow up

have you ever had to hold all your emotion in? its not good at all ! it will eventually all blow up and bite you in the ass. yeah  that happened to me today. with my mom . i try to hold my emotions in so i can just make everyone happy but you know it just makes it worse. and i never learn my lesson from it. people tell me hit a pillow or write it all down. that will help it all. welp it doesnt. self harm seemed to have helped me for a while but its not good for me. and people judge and that will just make everything worse. ive finally got over that damn addicting. it was so difficult ! but im happy i made it. yes i still have the scars and they haunt me sometimes but i know in the end it means that i have made it. and that make me happy.